Day 10

My head's turning
Body's yearning
Hands everywhere
Waiting for that one touch

One kiss of you
Just one taste
Feelings growing
Faster, Longer & stronger

So softly
Just kissing you
Just holding you
Just simply adoring you

Day 9

Darkness creeps in
Lights fading out
Reaching in the dark
But there's nothing there

Just emptiness & silence
Peace & disturbance
Calmness, but yet again crazy
Hearing screams far away

Heavy breathing, exhaling
Anticipation, nothing makes sense
Which was clear for all
Cause life never figures

Day 8

Leaving out of this world
Tragically & yet unknown
No rhytm, no feelings
No sunshine, no rain
Just a longing soul

Reaching to be out there
Reaching to be heard
Seeing people every day
Avoiding them on every way
But a word is just a word

Love kills slowly
It breeds suicide
A compatible sign
There ain't in mine
Death comes & life dies

Day 7

Here is a song I wrote, to tell you the words that I don't easily speak.

It's easy, to love you. I wonder, will I have you? I'm just longing to have you by my side.
I know it's crazy but we can make it right. You're perfect in every way.
The sun in your face, just beauty with grace, I love you every day.

Let me touch you right. Let me hold you tonight.
Let me kiss you first. Let me still your thirst.
Your hunger for love. You must be sent from heaven above.

You were the one who caught my eye. You are the one for who I would die.
Every day I miss you more. They say more is less, but with you less is more.
If you could see yourself through my eyes. Than you would know how beautiful you are.

Let me touch you right. Let me hold you tonight.
Let me kiss you first. Let me still your thirst.
Your hunger for love. You must be sent from heaven above.

I have a dream of you & me. I've seen in the future that we could be.
Nights are so cold & lonely without you. I feel like I gotta live besides you.
I wanna be the one where you come home to. I wanna be the one that you call when you're feeling down. I wanna be the one that you wanna have around. Like all the time, you're on my mind. With every step that I take, I'll take you with me, cause I don't wanna leave you behind. You're like the tease of my game. The temptation that I wanna call by name. But baby, Gimme your number, put it in my phone. And call me, when you're feeling alone.

Let me touch you right. Let me hold you tonight.
Let me kiss you first. Let me still your thirst.
Your hunger for love. You must be sent from heaven above..

Day 6

The hardest part of telling someone what you feel about them, is finding the right words to say at the right time. Words that come from the heart, not the words that are in your head. The right words say so much, the wrong words say so little.

Misunderstanding, Wrong objecting. Misinterperated, whatever you like to call it. I know that what I told you, you know is true. Cause expressing my feelings right out of the blue, is something that I don't often do.

But with you, for some reason, I took a chance to express. I still don't understand why. Because it was the wrong timing. Wrong words being said. What I said, I could've told it much better. I still believe, I was wrong for telling you then.

Knowing now, that the words wouldn't matter, the timing wouldn't matter, I never should've say it. But the cards were dealt, I couldn't play it any better. Simple words to say: Women => SUCK, Love=>SUCK. The only thing that always rules is bloody SEX :o!!! Right?

Signing off...

Day 5

Home sick for a week. Sick is a big word, cause i'm actually only just way too tired xD. But it's a problem too right??!! So i have a chance of catching up on some sleep. But it has been a good week so far. And the weekend will be even better :p. Three days of none stop partying!!!

Oke now to the serious shit. Discussing shit and wondering stuff. Oke i found out that half of the time, my ex is lying to me and making up excuses so she wouldn't have to see me. what's up with that? Women, I will never understand then, even being a woman myself. We're way too hard.

Next thing: How you know you love someone? When do you know for sure? Cause the line between friendship & love, hate & love, is a very close line. How you find out those things? You just try it and see what happens? Or you just wait and see what will come?

Which basically comes down on the same thing right?! But who gives a crap right? I just wanna hear that i'm right all the way :p. But i'm not that often wrong, so it's all good. What else can i put down here?

I'm starting to live a bit more healthier. will it work? Probably not :p. I'm so used to the sugar of all the sodas that the water is so boring for me xD. But i just have to hold on. Be strong :p. Start to enjoy the water xD. Get fishy xD!!!

Let's see. Anything else to put here? Not really. I saw my boy again. We had lots of fun. So life is starting to be fun again. Had some crappy times, and i'm sure there are more crappy times to come, but we all have those days i guess...

Signing off...

Day 4

A few weeks passed by. Probably I should say alot of things happened. But I don't wanna bore you guys. So I'll just keep them short xD. I started going back to "school". Following a course for Aftersales in the automobile.

Bad period to go for that, but it's what I love. I love cars, I love working them. Just really passioned about it. So that was like the major thing I guess. First month is over!! Only 2 more months to go!!! We'll get there xD!

Than I haven't seen my dearest friend BEN in 4 or 5 weeks. Which I find truly sad. Cause I love him alot and I really miss him. And when I see him I'm gonna give him a BIG HUG!!! Than on the other hand mah baby complained that I never write something about her, so therefor...

Lately I've been spending alot of time with mah baby xD. Maybe too much, who knows :p?! We go party alot :p We can talk alot, we have lots of fun. And soon baby we're gonna be filthy f*cking rich. We'll have lots of girls then.

I know you have a girl now. I'm very happy for you. You deserve it!!! But whenever you need me, I'll be there for you. Soon we'll be roomies too, probably. It'll be so much fun xD!!! Euhm let's see what else could I tell?

Lately I've been missing my ex again. Which is not so good. But I'll live I guess. Anything else? Not really I guess, so I'll think I go. And leave you bastards alone xD. This is me, Just signing off...