Day 11

They say only god judge me, but I can’t see things clear.
How the fuck am I supposed to know if I have hell to fear?
If my heaven door won’t open, will my soul be there?
Can anybody help me? Cause I’m feeling kinda scared.
If my life has passed and my mind has died.
Would anybody care about the tears I cried?
If I, could’ve been saved, would I, still feel the touch of your embrace?
If I was gone, how will I know if I have died with grace?
All these questions, but the answers can’t be found.
I’m lost like hell, but my heaven still needs to be crowned.
My feet’s getting warm, but my hands get cold.
Is hell calling, or is my soul been sold?
To this devil, this demon still unknown.
Or is god just telling me that my feelings are unshown?
It’s crazy, it’s mind beating.
If I die, will my love be leaving?

Heaven’s calling. I see my life, it’s almost falling.
Somebody help me, give me strength.
I don’t wanna see my life, passing by, just sitting by the bench.
No more sidelines. No more worries.
Help me get me back on this road, on my life of hell. (x2)

Why’d you wanna judge me for the things I do?
If I all ever did, was meant for you.
Every crime I committed, every thing I’ve done.
Every word I said, every song I’ve sung
I’m trapped in the dark, there’s no way out.
If I can’t see my light, how do I know what it’s all about?
If you are my guidance, on my path of life.
Why can’t you show me which roads to take?
Or is it easier for you, just to see how I would break?
Cause you trapped me in this nightmare.
And now you got me running scared.
Or is it all just a test to see how much I would dare?
I can feel it’s close, I can hear heaven calling.
Look at all this rain, god’s tears are falling.
Must’ve done something wrong.
How will I ever find my way back home?

Heaven’s calling. I see my life, it’s almost falling.
Somebody help me, give me strength.
I don’t wanna see my life, passing by, just sitting by the bench.
No more sidelines. No more worries.
Help me get me back on this road, on my life of hell. (x2)