dinsdag 14 juli 2009

Day 11

They say only god judge me, but I can’t see things clear.
How the fuck am I supposed to know if I have hell to fear?
If my heaven door won’t open, will my soul be there?
Can anybody help me? Cause I’m feeling kinda scared.
If my life has passed and my mind has died.
Would anybody care about the tears I cried?
If I, could’ve been saved, would I, still feel the touch of your embrace?
If I was gone, how will I know if I have died with grace?
All these questions, but the answers can’t be found.
I’m lost like hell, but my heaven still needs to be crowned.
My feet’s getting warm, but my hands get cold.
Is hell calling, or is my soul been sold?
To this devil, this demon still unknown.
Or is god just telling me that my feelings are unshown?
It’s crazy, it’s mind beating.
If I die, will my love be leaving?

Heaven’s calling. I see my life, it’s almost falling.
Somebody help me, give me strength.
I don’t wanna see my life, passing by, just sitting by the bench.
No more sidelines. No more worries.
Help me get me back on this road, on my life of hell. (x2)

Why’d you wanna judge me for the things I do?
If I all ever did, was meant for you.
Every crime I committed, every thing I’ve done.
Every word I said, every song I’ve sung
I’m trapped in the dark, there’s no way out.
If I can’t see my light, how do I know what it’s all about?
If you are my guidance, on my path of life.
Why can’t you show me which roads to take?
Or is it easier for you, just to see how I would break?
Cause you trapped me in this nightmare.
And now you got me running scared.
Or is it all just a test to see how much I would dare?
I can feel it’s close, I can hear heaven calling.
Look at all this rain, god’s tears are falling.
Must’ve done something wrong.
How will I ever find my way back home?

Heaven’s calling. I see my life, it’s almost falling.
Somebody help me, give me strength.
I don’t wanna see my life, passing by, just sitting by the bench.
No more sidelines. No more worries.
Help me get me back on this road, on my life of hell. (x2)

maandag 1 juni 2009

Day 10

My head's turning
Body's yearning
Hands everywhere
Waiting for that one touch

One kiss of you
Just one taste
Feelings growing
Faster, Longer & stronger

So softly
Just kissing you
Just holding you
Just simply adoring you

maandag 25 mei 2009

Day 9

Darkness creeps in
Lights fading out
Reaching in the dark
But there's nothing there

Just emptiness & silence
Peace & disturbance
Calmness, but yet again crazy
Hearing screams far away

Heavy breathing, exhaling
Anticipation, nothing makes sense
Which was clear for all
Cause life never figures

dinsdag 19 mei 2009

Day 8

Leaving out of this world
Tragically & yet unknown
No rhytm, no feelings
No sunshine, no rain
Just a longing soul

Reaching to be out there
Reaching to be heard
Seeing people every day
Avoiding them on every way
But a word is just a word

Love kills slowly
It breeds suicide
A compatible sign
There ain't in mine
Death comes & life dies

woensdag 29 april 2009

Day 7

Here is a song I wrote, to tell you the words that I don't easily speak.

It's easy, to love you. I wonder, will I have you? I'm just longing to have you by my side.
I know it's crazy but we can make it right. You're perfect in every way.
The sun in your face, just beauty with grace, I love you every day.

Let me touch you right. Let me hold you tonight.
Let me kiss you first. Let me still your thirst.
Your hunger for love. You must be sent from heaven above.

You were the one who caught my eye. You are the one for who I would die.
Every day I miss you more. They say more is less, but with you less is more.
If you could see yourself through my eyes. Than you would know how beautiful you are.

Let me touch you right. Let me hold you tonight.
Let me kiss you first. Let me still your thirst.
Your hunger for love. You must be sent from heaven above.

I have a dream of you & me. I've seen in the future that we could be.
Nights are so cold & lonely without you. I feel like I gotta live besides you.
I wanna be the one where you come home to. I wanna be the one that you call when you're feeling down. I wanna be the one that you wanna have around. Like all the time, you're on my mind. With every step that I take, I'll take you with me, cause I don't wanna leave you behind. You're like the tease of my game. The temptation that I wanna call by name. But baby, Gimme your number, put it in my phone. And call me, when you're feeling alone.

Let me touch you right. Let me hold you tonight.
Let me kiss you first. Let me still your thirst.
Your hunger for love. You must be sent from heaven above..

maandag 9 maart 2009

Day 6

The hardest part of telling someone what you feel about them, is finding the right words to say at the right time. Words that come from the heart, not the words that are in your head. The right words say so much, the wrong words say so little.

Misunderstanding, Wrong objecting. Misinterperated, whatever you like to call it. I know that what I told you, you know is true. Cause expressing my feelings right out of the blue, is something that I don't often do.

But with you, for some reason, I took a chance to express. I still don't understand why. Because it was the wrong timing. Wrong words being said. What I said, I could've told it much better. I still believe, I was wrong for telling you then.

Knowing now, that the words wouldn't matter, the timing wouldn't matter, I never should've say it. But the cards were dealt, I couldn't play it any better. Simple words to say: Women => SUCK, Love=>SUCK. The only thing that always rules is bloody SEX :o!!! Right?

Signing off...

woensdag 4 maart 2009

Day 5

Home sick for a week. Sick is a big word, cause i'm actually only just way too tired xD. But it's a problem too right??!! So i have a chance of catching up on some sleep. But it has been a good week so far. And the weekend will be even better :p. Three days of none stop partying!!!

Oke now to the serious shit. Discussing shit and wondering stuff. Oke i found out that half of the time, my ex is lying to me and making up excuses so she wouldn't have to see me. what's up with that? Women, I will never understand then, even being a woman myself. We're way too hard.

Next thing: How you know you love someone? When do you know for sure? Cause the line between friendship & love, hate & love, is a very close line. How you find out those things? You just try it and see what happens? Or you just wait and see what will come?

Which basically comes down on the same thing right?! But who gives a crap right? I just wanna hear that i'm right all the way :p. But i'm not that often wrong, so it's all good. What else can i put down here?

I'm starting to live a bit more healthier. will it work? Probably not :p. I'm so used to the sugar of all the sodas that the water is so boring for me xD. But i just have to hold on. Be strong :p. Start to enjoy the water xD. Get fishy xD!!!

Let's see. Anything else to put here? Not really. I saw my boy again. We had lots of fun. So life is starting to be fun again. Had some crappy times, and i'm sure there are more crappy times to come, but we all have those days i guess...

Signing off...